I realised something quite shocking today; I've lost weight. Now normally this would be a good thing to some girls but to me it's the last thing I want to happen.
Y'see, I am naturally skinny, but I'm forever pressurising myself to put on some weight. During my A Levels I had managed to slip down to an extremely unhealthy weight of 6 and a half stone - 41kg - and since then I've been obsessed with trying to put on weight. You don't know how many comments I get about my size, and even though I should be happy with it, I'm really not.
And now I'm at 45kg.
I just don't know what to do anymore, because the amount of shit I eat should make me a fatty but it's done nothing at all. I'm just so down about it as I don't wanna' be seen almost skeletal or unhealthy. I really hate exercising as well (I'm the laziest shit in the universe) and spend most of my time chomping away on Twirls or Rich Tea biscuits.
It would just be nice to reach a "healthy" weight one day.