Feeling guilty + opening up about my insecurities…
So, as you can tell, I’ve been really into ryousangata and jirai lately…
And that makes me feel incredibly guilty because I feel like I’ve betrayed gal haha…
But it’s so refreshing trying out something new and to be a newbie again; watching tutorials, building a wardrobe and talking to new people.
And it makes me realise just how fed up I am with labels.
I just want to wear cute things and do things that makes me happy.
If I want to wear ryousangata one day, I can.
And if I want to do hime gal the next, I can.
If I want to do gal makeup with some cute frilly clothes, I can.
Why do I always feel like I have to put myself in a category?
(Of course I understand that substyles are very important when you’re a beginner because it helps guide you in your gal journey).
I guess that’s why I’m allowing myself to explore other styles at the moment. I will always be gal but, if I have to be super honest with you, sometimes I feel… inadequate? Like I don’t really belong or something which sounds stupid I know esp because I’ve been gal for well over 10+ years now.
Sometimes I look at myself and just think: do I even look gal? I guess I am still very insecure about how I look haha. Will that ever go away?
But then the next day I realise how silly those thoughts were.
And I realise that it’s time to stop restricting myself.
It’s time to have fun!
Wish me luck…