It’s been nearly a year since I had my lil’ breakdown; I was almost going to abandon my blog but luckily Darla managed to slap that outta me and encouraged me to go back to my roots and blog like the good ol’ days. I’m not going to go into too much detail about this (as I already have a post about it) soooo I’m gonna’ dive right in to reflect what life has been like this past year!
I went from writing 2 educational posts a month to… Around 3 in a whole year
Okay, so I did plenty of inspiration posts and mag scans but I’m not going to count those because those were mainly for my benefit and were more of a photo dump. I haven’t written a lengthy guide in aaaages. And it feels so freeing! I feel like I’ve passed my mantel onto other gyaru bloggers now so I can just sit back and relax lmao.
TikTok? What’s that?
Oh yeah so I finally deleted TikTok off of my phone and you know what? I don’t miss it. I was just getting tired of being asked the same questions over and over because people are too lazy to google. I know that sounds harsh, but honestly? It’s true. The amount of times people asked, for example, “can I do gyaru without a tan” was INSANE. Plus I found that I was all too focused on the numbers so deleting that was such a good idea.
This is something I’m still working on but my mental health has improved SO MUCH since I abandoned the idea of having a perfect blog. I haven’t had a “photoshoot” day in aaaaaages and now I’ve gone back to being super casual and taking outfit shots in the mirror. It’s allowed me to express myself a lot more as I am not scared of making mistakes and learning new things!
As weird as it sounds, it made me stop wanting to be 100% perfect in other aspects of my life, too! I do suffer from it from time-to-time but I’m so much better than I was.
I fell in love with gyaru again!
I feel like this kind of ties in with all of the above in a sense that because I let go of perfectionism and took a step back from posting educational content, it allowed me to go back and experiment with new styles all over again. As well as a himekaji gal, I am also a baby hime gyaru (tehehe) which is something I never thought I’d say about being gyaru for 10+ years. Being a newbie let me completely throw myself into the style and go back to doing lots of research and filling up this blog with photo dumps and new things I’ve tried (and often failed at).
I’m really happy that I took the much-needed steps to improve my mental health, and my relationship with my blog has grown so much stronger over the past year! It’s become my happy place again (˘︶˘).｡.:*♡
That’s all for my rambles for today! Speak soon ♡♡