Feeling guilty + opening up about my insecurities…

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So, as you can tell, I’ve been really into ryousangata and jirai lately…

And that makes me feel incredibly guilty because I feel like I’ve betrayed gal haha…

But it’s so refreshing trying out something new and to be a newbie again; watching tutorials, building a wardrobe and talking to new people.

And it makes me realise just how fed up I am with labels.

I just want to wear cute things and do things that makes me happy.

If I want to wear ryousangata one day, I can.
And if I want to do hime gal the next, I can.
If I want to do gal makeup with some cute frilly clothes, I can.

Why do I always feel like I have to put myself in a category?

(Of course I understand that substyles are very important when you’re a beginner because it helps guide you in your gal journey).

I guess that’s why I’m allowing myself to explore other styles at the moment. I will always be gal but, if I have to be super honest with you, sometimes I feel… inadequate? Like I don’t really belong or something which sounds stupid I know esp because I’ve been gal for well over 10+ years now.

Sometimes I look at myself and just think: do I even look gal? I guess I am still very insecure about how I look haha. Will that ever go away?

But then the next day I realise how silly those thoughts were.

And I realise that it’s time to stop restricting myself.

It’s time to have fun!

Wish me luck…

What do you think?

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  • Ame
    June 1, 2023

    I think it’s really great you are experimenting and trying new styles!! Our wants and tastes change over time, that isn’t anything to be ashamed of and it doesn’t make you any less of a gal. 🙂

  • Rae
    June 1, 2023

    I think my first comment didn’t go thru but sorry if this is posted twice! I feel the same way tbh, I love old school gal but I’m also interested in jirai and ryosan and it makes me feel guilty for not committing to one. But honestly sometimes I just get bored with a style and I need something different, or I’m just not feeling it that day. I want to be myself, not a label that someone else made up. No one should be locked to only one thing!!

    • hellolizziebee
      June 1, 2023

      That’s okay sweet, I have to approve all comments so that could be another reason why it didn’t come up!
      And honestly I’m glad you feel the same way that I do! 💕

  • Mel
    June 1, 2023

    Let me applaud you for what you posted. It’s exactly how I’ve been feeling for years & really, even what I eat, I don’t like labeling it. I don’t wanna be several labels, I wanna be Mel & I also want you to be YOU, Lizzie & whoever reads that needs to listen to that.
    I don’t think it has to do about the style itself but about people who put that on the pedestal as if it’s either this or you’re out which takes out all of the fun.
    I’m not gonna turn my head because “you’re not gal” or “not dressing gal” or “not doing gal things”, simply because I like you as you are, because I find you interesting & I like that FRESH AIR of experimenting & having fun first of all.
    Bravo for posting that, you spoke out for a lot of us who simply have various stuff going on with our lifestyle. Both are good, everything’s good, we all live differently.
    All love ❤ Be proud for posting that.

    • hellolizziebee
      June 1, 2023

      I feel like there’s just so much pressure esp in the western comm and I’m just too tired for that anymore hahaha. Thank you so much for your lovely comment, I’m glad that you can relate 💕