Life can be so unpredictable. When you think you’ve finally found your way and start to feel comfortable, someone pulls out a wobbly jenga piece and it all starts crashing down back to square one. I continuously work myself to exhaustion to try and keep on top of it all until one day I find myself lying in bed staring blankly at the ceiling.
I didn’t think much of you when we first met; you were a pretty ordinary guy with an ordinary life, and I was actually quite sick of boys at that time because they were always the same. No matter how pretty they were they were predictable to the core (from the guys I knew of anyway) and it was a bit boring. I thus decided that I couldn’t be bothered to have a guy in my life and would rather just do my own thing and be my own favourite human.
And then you came along and… Well, nothing changed. At first. anyway.
Once again I’m caught in the middle of a style crisis; on some days I want to be all pink and fluffy, and on others I want to be dark and witchy (so in gyaru terms it’s agejo/himekaji vs rokku gyaru). If I could ever win an award it would be for having the most indecisive and inconsistent style, a gyaru chameleon. Normally I would just go with the flow and jump at the opportunity to try new things but one day I got so sick of it that I behaved like a stroppy child and just sat with my arms crossed trying to figure out what to wear.
I remember it as clear as day; me and my friend were sitting at a bar with our new housemate, and we were having a right giggle when our new roomie suddenly leant forwards and said “Haven’t you noticed that Lizzie has bunny rabbit teeth?” I was slightly intoxicated at the time but I remember my stomach dropping and my happiness faltering. Why would they say that, right in front of me? Luckily my friend just laughed it off and started pointing out our roomie’s imperfections while I just sat there trying to think of the best way to recover.
Dear Younger Me,
Life is fleeting. You’ll lose people you thought were invincible and it’s going to hurt. Bad. It’ll hurt so much that you can’t breathe but you can survive this. Smother those who mean the most to you with love and do all that you can to make them happy. That person you dismissed as annoying or irritating because they’re always there is perhaps one of the most important people in the world.
By 
